"But He knows the way that I take; when He has tested me,
I shall come forth as gold." Job 23:10 NKJV
This month we are blessed to hear from three women who have walked with God through the valley of the
shadow of cancer. Each testimony will bless your heart and remind you of
God's ever faithful love. Below is a list of resources. If you would like to share about your cancer journey or the journey of someone you love, we would treasure hearing from you at the end of this article.
Our first testimony is from my sweet sister in Christ, Sarah from Iowa, who was diagnosed with a brain tumor and the very real possibility
of cancer. She delights in sharing about God's faithfulness through her time of trial. Thank you, Sarah!
Somewhere around the middle of 2012
was when I first began to realize that something might be wrong. There
were no major symptoms, but just a series of incidents that were significant
enough to begin to cause some concern, such as some memory loss, a couple of
severe headaches, and a dizzy spell or two that all seemed unusual.
From the very beginning, God’s hand
was amazingly evident in every detail! First of all, our family has a
friend who is a neurologist, and she was the one who, after hearing about the
incidents I had, was able to get me a referral to see a doctor in early
October. He did an EEG and an MRI, which revealed a small mass in my
right temporal lobe that was causing some minor seizure-like activity in my
brain. He was of the opinion that it needed to be removed, even though it
appeared benign, and he referred me to a doctor at the University of Iowa
Hospital, because of the world-class excellence of the neurosurgery department
there. I first saw him on October 22, and he was able to get me scheduled
me for surgery on November 14.
God graciously allowed me to
continue teaching right up until the day before my surgery and make
preparations for my aid, who took over the classroom in my
absence. This dear woman was another clear evidence of God’s
sovereign provision, since she had been a part of our classroom since the
beginning of the year and works wonderfully well with the kids!
The
surgery lasted 7 hours and went very well, however they had to leave a small
part of the tumor, because it was located so near to the brain stem. We
had been told that very likely I would have to do further treatment at some
point or possibly have another surgery in the future. I was
released from the hospital 4 days after surgery and permitted to go to stay
with my parents during the recovery time. God’s timing was so
perfect, as the time recommended for recovery took me right up to Christmas
break, and it was such a blessing to be able to be with my family during that
time!
When
the pathology report came back, I was told that it was the best possible news I
could have received! Not only was the tumor benign, but amazingly they do
not believe that I will ever have to worry about it again, even though they
couldn’t remove it entirely! I was totally overwhelmed by God’s goodness
and mercy in giving me such complete healing! The prayers of so many
people on my behalf during this time were truly humbling and encouraging, and
it was wonderful to be able to share this news, for when many people pray, many
thanks can be rendered to God for His answer!
As
I daily recovered my strength, it was great to be able to resume more and more
normal activities, and when school started back up in January, I was able to go
back to teaching. It really only took about a week before I really felt
like I was back into the swing of things, and in fact, in many ways I felt even
better than I had before the surgery!
God
has continued to give me many opportunities to share what He did through all of
this, and to Him be all the glory for everything, for He is truly sovereign in
every detail of life and wonderfully good in everything that He allows!
I
would not trade this experience, because I learned so much through it –
especially about what the Body of Christ looks like when it is truly
functioning as God intends it to, the nearness of God that we can most fully
experience when we are hurting the most or feeling the most needy, and His
absolute sovereignty in every detail of our lives! I praise Him for
entrusting me with this small trial, so that I can be better able to be an
encouragement to others with the same comfort that God gave to me during this
time!
One
of the verses that became especially precious to me through all this is Psalm
59:16:
“I will sing of Your strength and will
joyfully proclaim Your faithful love in the morning. For You have been a
stronghold for me, a refuge in my day of trouble.” CSB
Truly,
God is my strength, my joy, and my refuge, and life’s trials only serve to make
that truth more real and more precious than ever!
This next testimony is from the heart of a beautiful friend named Kay who lives in Alabama. I learned so much and was extremely encouraged by what she shared, and I know you will be, too. Thank you, Kay!
My
Cancer Journey . . .
- When your Mom gets breast cancer and you're in elementary
school, and when she passes away from it when you're 12, you always have in the
back of your mind that you're going to get breast cancer, too.
- So when you find your first lump at 16, have it removed and
it comes back benign, you're relieved.
- And when you start having mammograms at 30, and they
routinely show lumps that are non-cancerous you are relieved.
- And when you have a lump that doesn't change, but doesn't go
away, you don't really worry, but you get it checked out. But, when the
hospital Breast Cancer Center calls you back, and you walk in and see the doctor and
the head of the BC Support Group, and before they even open their mouths,
you know "this is the moment you've been dreading for 36 years!,"
you're still shocked, surprised, and numb.
At
that point I was thankful for 3 specific things in my life: an amazing husband,
a wonderful care team, and God's immeasurable grace.
The
medical care team told me they believed we had caught it early, but that
we would need to do some more testing. At that point things flew
very quickly. I was glad I’d thought through what I’d do, because
you have to make life-altering, and body-altering decisions rather
rapidly.
I chose a completely traditional medicine approach at that
time. If I had it to do again, I would probably do it differently – but I
trust that God had me where he wanted me when He wanted me, so I choose to have
no regrets. The doctors thought lumpectomy might be enough. With my history
(which also included positive aunts on my father’s side), I chose double mastectomy.
Following surgery, the doctors told me they were glad for my decision; they
found tumors in both breasts that had not appeared in any diagnostic procedure.
Mastectomy was the only logical choice, and it had been the choice God had led
me to make.
I cannot describe God’s overwhelming presence throughout the
entire journey. Frankly, sometimes I almost miss cancer because I miss that
extra grace that God gives in trials like that. And, when you know your
life is in God’s hands, you can trust that He is in control and going to do
with it was it best for you and best for bringing glory to His name. Period.
I had many extra opportunities to talk with others about the
Lord during this time. Many could not understand peace in the midst of my
storm. On the other side, many were a great encouragement to me during this
time. I started a Facebook Page (link here),
just to keep everyone updated. It was a HUGE comfort to ask for prayer and KNOW
that friends were truly praying for me. It was also very cathartic to be
able to write out what I was going through each step of the way. I’m also
encouraged to go back and read through God’s provision and presence at every
single step.
What did people say “right?” “I’m praying for you” and
“I love you” were always the best! I loved the specific people – “we pray
for you every day at breakfast!” or “the kids and I pray for you each night at
bedtime.” It reminded me that, if I was feeling bad at 8:00, the family
that put their kids to bed at 8:00 was praying for me! Also the tangible “what
can I do?” was wonderful. It was offered often, but the ones who really
waited and listened for me to answer were special. Also those who gave me
permission to have bad days and a shoulder to cry on, even if words were never
spoken were a blessing.
What did people say “wrong?” “OH, that’s terrible! My
Grandma died from that!” or “Have fun in the bedroom now, you won’t be
attractive to your hubby after they cut your breasts off!” “Oh, you must
be so terrified for your daughters!” (That one WAS one of my greatest fears,
and I had to address it with the Lord. But someone reminding me really didn’t
help anything!) Yeah, those three were pretty bad! Most of the time, people
were great! Sometimes people put their foot in their mouth – but we usually
just laughed together after that. I appreciated the effort and the selflessness
of trying to say something sweet, even if it came out wrong. J
If you found out you had cancer today, I’d encourage you to
pause. And then pray. I was grateful for quick care. But, frankly, there really
was no rush. We’d been watching things for over 6 months; we could have waited
6 more months and little would have changed. Pray and ask God to guide
you (and spouse, if you are fortunate enough to have one involved). Then seek
the counsel of those who have walked the path already. I learned more from
other “survivors” than I did from Google, WebMD, medical journals, and the
American Cancer Society together! Then pray some more and ask God to direct your
specific path. Talk with your pastor and pastor’s wife. They probably
have a great deal more experience with “big things” than you do – even if it’s
not cancer. Then walk your path with peace and confidence.
Our purpose on this planet is to glorify God. Psalm 86:12
tells us:
"I will praise thee, O Lord my God, with all my heart: and I will glorify thy name for evermore." KJV
I also found comfort in Philippians 1:20:
"According to my earnest expectation and my hope, that in nothing I shall be ashamed, but that with all boldness, as always, so now also Christ shall be magnified in my body, whether it be by life, or by death." KJV
Frankly, if God wanted me to die from cancer, everything would be better because of it. He had a plan, and I was blessed to be a part of that plan.
I’m thankful I’m still here. But I remind myself, am I glorifying God today as much as I was when I was walking the path of breast cancer? Cancer, in its own way, was something God allowed in my life that drew me closer to Him – and for that I am thankful.
This last testimony is from the mom
of a dear college friend. Thank you, Donna in California! You are a blessing.
GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME
It was about the beginning of
December that I noticed something wasn’t quite right. I made an appointment, and a verse started
going through my mind – we had the
sentence of death in ourselves.
The nurse practitioner found a large
mass and seemed alarmed. She told me to
schedule a mammogram and ultrasound. The
next day the verse went through my mind again and I was by myself: “Lord, are
you trying to telling me I am going to die?”
I stopped what I was doing and looked up the verse: II Corinthians
1:8-11:
“For we would not, brethren, have you ignorant of our trouble
which came to us in Asia, that we were pressed out of measure, above strength,
insomuch that we despaired even of life (sounds
like cancer surgery, chemotherapy, being sick as a dog, and finding out you
have Stage IV cancer): But we had
the sentence of death in ourselves, that we should not trust in ourselves, but
in God which raiseth the dead: Who delivered us from so great a death, and doth
deliver: in whom we trust that he will yet deliver us: Ye also helping together
by prayer for us, that for the gift bestowed upon us by the means of many
persons, thanks may be given by many on our behalf.” KJV
I want to just make a plea here for
you to familiarize yourself with God’s word.
It is so easy to do that in this day and age, with all the technology
available to us. You can listen to
scripture on your iPod or iPad, download it, put it on CD’s, hear it in your
car or when you are getting ready in the morning, you can get preaching from
Sunday (online) – there are so many ways to get the Bible in to renew your mind
- what a harvest of blessings that will bring to you!
You know, God really is good all the
time. He knows I am prone to worry. He knew I might just fall apart if I got news
of cancer. So, He gave me these verses
ahead of time, so I wouldn’t go off the deep end and despair. I haven’t been upset about having
cancer. Other people are more upset than
I am. God was good to prepare me.
I had the mammogram and ultrasound,
and the doctor said he saw something and scheduled a biopsy. Three days before my biopsy, I was
asked to play the offertory for Sunday. I chose Be Still My Soul. The phrase kept jumping out at me – in every change, He faithful will remain.
God will be faithful to me in every change.
On January 22nd I found
out it was breast cancer and the doctor who gave me the news was so sweet. I really was doing fine until she started
being sympathetic and told me to put my trust in God. That made me cry, and she cried with me.
My Bible reading for that day was
Exodus 14-16: 14:13 says, “Fear ye not, stand still, and see the salvation of
the Lord, which he will show to you today.”
God told me in His word that morning, before I went to the appointment,
not to be afraid.
The oncologist said, “This is a
sneaky kind of cancer.” It’s not a lump
– I never felt a lump – it’s a thickening, so it’s harder to detect. And it’s lobular, so it doesn’t show up on a
mammogram until it is very large. She
told us what our options were and one of them was the mastectomy and
reconstruction.
Obviously, what I think is best for
me would be no cancer. But God had
something else in mind. If you had asked
me 5 months ago if I thought it would be good for me to have cancer I would
have said, “Of course not!” But if it is
true that God only does what is best for me, then it is good for me to have cancer.
We’ve been praying for some loved
ones, to be saved, for some time now - and we don’t really know if they are
unsaved or just away from the Lord. One
of them responded positively to an email update. If I had to get cancer in order for him to
get right with the Lord, it’s totally worth it.
If I have to endure some light affliction in order for his immortal soul
to be in heaven one day – that’s such a small price to pay. I’ve always wished I could be able to reach
some of my coworkers for the Lord, and this cancer has really opened doors for
me. I want them to see that God is good, all the time … even when you get
cancer.
My pastor came over that day and
prayed with us and said he agrees with me about my verses and feels the Lord is
going to use this cancer for ministry to others. He gave me Philippians 1:29:
"For unto you it is given (it’s a gift) in the behalf of
Christ, not only to believe on him, but also to suffer for his sake." KJV
Suffering is a gift from God. He said there are 3 reasons people suffer –
for stupidity, for sin, and for service.
And part of the reason may be stupidity – I hadn’t had a mammogram for 8
years, so we might have caught it sooner, but maybe not since it’s so hard to
detect. My doctor did say I have had
this cancer for years. (I just want to
put in a little plug here. If you do need
to get a mammogram, you are better off to get the thermal kind, so you are not
getting all that radiation.)
He said God is not doing this to me,
He is doing this for me. Then he gave us Psalm 71:18. I love this
one:
“Now also when I am old and grey-headed, O God, forsake me not;
until I have showed thy strength unto this generation and thy power to every
one that is to come.” KJV
God will use this to show His power
to my children and my grandchildren. I
was actually kind of excited about having cancer. I do want my children and grandchildren to
love God and cling closely to Him all their days.
I thought I was handling everything
pretty well, but even if our minds are doing well, our bodies can be reacting
to the stress. That night I had flashing lights on the side of my vision that
last for several minutes. Before my
appointment (to check my eyes), I went to a nutrition class for cancer
patients, and saw a man with a scar from one ear to the other, over the top of
his head, and his hair was just starting to grow back. I thought, Oh my word, he must have brain cancer!
After class I told my nurse about
the flashing lights and I said, “You don’t think that could have anything to do
with my breast cancer, do you?” She
said, “Well, breast cancer goes to the brain, so your doctor will probably
order a brain scan, in fact she’ll probably order a full body scan, just to
make sure.”
I went to the car and cried. I don’t
mind having breast cancer, but I don’t want to have brain cancer. I found
out it was an eye migraine caused by stress.
The Lord has given me grace for breast cancer because I have breast
cancer … and that’s why I’m okay with it.
But He has not given me grace for brain cancer, because I don’t have
brain cancer.
Some of you may think, “I could
never handle what she’s going through!”
Yes, you could. If God gives that
to you, He will also give you the grace to bear it. Grace is spiritual strength. It is that ability to be obedient to our
Savior, even under pressure. It’s what
keeps us from falling under the load.
You will have the spiritual strength to endure whatever the Lord brings
into your life because He’s a good God.
The end of that week I had a biopsy
of the lymph node that was positive for cancer, and later had a bone scan that
showed cancer all down my spine and in my pelvis. So, I am Stage IV. Once breast cancer has metastasized to other
parts of the body, there is no cure.
They still felt I needed surgery, so
I went ahead and had a 9 hour surgery at UCLA that included the mastectomy,
removal of 60 lymph nodes (59 of which were cancerous) and the
reconstruction. Just before surgery I was
tempted to be frightened. But, I had
taken a verse with me to the hospital (Colossians 3:15 – “And let the peace of
God rule in your hearts … and be ye thankful”).
That verse calmed me right down, and I started thinking of all my
blessings.
I remembered all the cards, emails,
kind words and prayers going up for me.
There are some perks to having cancer – you find out how much everyone
loves you. I was thankful for my husband
and all my wonderful family. I felt very
loved and cared for.
Right now I am doing very well. I don’t have any symptoms, I don’t have any
pain. The Lord has been so good to
me. I haven’t had to endure what most
cancer patients go through. I didn’t
have to have chemotherapy and be sick or lose my hair. My treatment is a pill I take every day and
then I get a shot once a month. I have a
couple more out-patient surgeries for reconstruction. I do have Stage IV
cancer, but my doctor said I could live for years on this treatment.
I hope all this has helped you
realize how good God is and that you can trust Him with anything, even that
hard thing that makes you tremble. I
would like to close with another song the Lord gave me. It talks about trusting God with all your
heart and not wanting to depart from the course that He has marked out for you.
My God Is Good
by Tracey Zimmerman and Faye Lopez
Where can I find hope in all the
trials that you bring?
How can I have joy while suffering loss?
When my soul’s imprisoned how can I find cause to sing?
How did you find peace while on the cross?
Though I may never understand, I’ll
trust with all my heart,
and from the course that you have planned I never want to part.
In searching for your way and wisdom
teach me if you would,
that for all time, in every place,
my God is good.
How can you give pardon to a life
that’s full of sin?
Where is there a refuge for my cares?
Is there any healing for a void that lies within,
when silence is your answer to my prayers?
Though I may never understand, I’ll
trust with all my heart,
and from the course that you have planned I never want to part.
In searching for your way and wisdom
teach me if you would,
that for all time, in every place,
my God is good.
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